Thursday, December 30, 2010

last post for 2010 :)

kene balik hostel dahh :'(
2010 brings me a lot of memories !
sedey ade , happy ade .  macam macam .
but for sure , those memories teach me what life is it .
teach me how to be strong eventhough i'm not that strong :)
especially for leaving a person that i love most !
yeah . him ! but , i'm still do it .
because i want to see him happy . but now , he's back :)
although we don't have any relationship , i still need him by my side .
i know he can't but i wish too . i still wishing that he can be my old A.F .
like what he promise to me before . i hope so :)
bie , i'm still love u . n i miss our old relationship .
i really really damn miss the moment that i had with u .  :'(
i know , sometimes i'm jealousy .
but , thats because iloveyou n i dont want anyone else to take my place .
haish .  if i can forget u , i'm sure ur life is more peaceful now .
but , i'm too much thank u because u're willing to still calling me baby :)


this is what i wanna be to u bie :'( 

n to u A.A .
pleasee realize something ya .
it is not me who want him , but he ask me to be his wife again .
n hell yah ! do u think i care u delete me as ur fren at fb ?
hoho . sorry ? I DONT CARE ! get it ? I DONT CARE !
thnz to my dearest friends , all of u always with me whenever i need you :)
especially lya , aan , wani , irni , lilo , iera , faten , aida , aimie , shark :) 
thnx baby ! i appreciate it so much !
n i hope our friendship will stick like this in 2011 !
not only 2011 ! but , FOREVER !
BFF ya ! iloveyou !







hope 2011 brings me more meaningful memories !
brings me joy , and success in whatever i do especially SPM .
its where my future begins :)

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

he's back :'(

27 dis 2010 .
he's back . OMG ! 
tak . urrrgggghhhhh !
he still think that i'm his wife , 
he said , if i dont love u , why until today i dun have any relationship with someone else ?
why i'm still calling u my baby ?
why i'm still calling myself 'bie' ?
urrrgggghhhhh !
i'm stuck ! dunno what to do .
i dun to fall in love with him again . 
i'm sick . i'm just wanna focus on my studies .
what should i do ? 

is it true ? 

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

i'm coming :)

school , hostel . i'm coming . adoiii :D
next year in 2011 . i'' be coming back to SMK Cochrane and ATPN as a SPM candidate .
OMG ! is it ? tak percaya . rase macam kecik lagi jea .
hey Arzi Amira !
remember !
dun break ur parent heart again .
only with ur excellent result will make them happy .
prove to them that u're better than ur cousin !
show to everyone that u're not damn stupid !
u can arzi , u can .
believe with urself that u can do it :D


ini tanggungjawab yg harus andaa pegang ,
bukti bahawa mereka percayakann andaa .
`even u don't like it , u have to do the job well !
:D

mereka :)

 
zulaika :)

 
siti nur athira :)


kiri : nurul fazira :)
empat dari kiri : fatin liyana :)
dua dari kiri : syahirah :)


nur faziera :)


anis amalina :)


shazwani elida :)

nurul izzati :)


muhd farid :)


muhd syafiq :)

siapa mereka ?
mereka ini kawan kawan sekolah rendah saya 
bukan lahh nie jea kawan sy . ade lg . tp , tak sempat nak curik dahh :)
SEKOLAH KEBANGSAAN TAMAN MUDA  :D
kitorang sangat nakal mase kecik kecik dulu . HAHA :)
dua tahun satu kelas . 5 Asmah , 6 Semangat , 6 Karisma .
mase standard 6 , kitorang terpisah sekejap . 
tp , kelas sebelah jea :p
guru kelas 5 Asmah dan 6 Semangat : Puan Asmah . :) baik :D
6 Karisma : ckgu Sheikh Azni :) suka dia ajar math :) 
haa , kitorang dulu suka gossipkan orang nie dgn orang tu .
HAHA :)
kitorang satu geng :)
riuh lahh sekolah tu kalau denga suare kitorang :)
ecehh . iye iye jea . :D
ingat lagi , mase last day sekolah .
kitorang nanges nanges kat lua dewan sekolah .
adeeii . so sad . :'(
peluk peluk . basah tudung kena air mata :)
ehh . yg lelaki tu tak termasok ehh :)
mase nak dekat UPSR dulu lg lahh . mintak maaf ngan sume orang .
n . we were crying too ! :)
nak mintak maaf ngan budak laki , adoii . malu gilaa woii :) 
HAHA :) sgt tebalkan muka lahh :)
sy , faziera , zulaika , fazira , fatin , athira , izzati , afiqah .
satu sekolah agama .
SEKOLAH RENDAH AGAMA KG CHERAS BARU  :D
satu kelas jugak .
6 Abu Bakar .
guru kelas : Ustaz Hakim :) handsome ooo :)
kitorang sume pengawas dulu . except nurul fazira , kitorang rehat awal . sian dye , selalu kena tinggal :)
ingat lagi , izzat suke lawan tinggi ngan sy . tiap tiap kali ukur , dia mesti 2 cm lbh tggi :)
ngan faziera pulak . lawan berat :) tp , dye lagi ringan lahh :)
after PSRA , seronok . mcm mcm aktiviti .
ade one day tu , kitorang main batu seremban dlm kelas .
izzat nie sebok jea nak main . dahh lahh main tipu ! 
adoii . izzat izzat :D 
 
haish .
sekarang nie , byk yg lost contact . dahh lame tak jumpe !
rinduu mereka , rinduu zaman primary school :)
nnty after SPM , hang puas puas !
bak kata anis amalina , hang smpai muntah ! :)
agree with u syg ! <3
 
lastly ,
andaa TERHEBAT ! :D 

brother :)

si gemok , gedik , gendut , nakal muhamad fadhil :)

tau siapa dia ?
dia abang sy . tp , bukan abg kandung . abg angkat jea .  
but , he's like my own brother .
almaklumlahh sy kann takde abg :D
tau orangnye mcm mane ?
dye sangat baik ! untung sape dapat jd bini dye .
ecehh :) 
tp , dia sangat  NAKAL ! :D
jgn marah ehh abg :)
suke kacau orang ! geram geram ! rase nak cubit jea kuat kuat ! :D
perkenalan kitorang terjadi secara tidak  sengaja semasa encik yazid merangkap kawan saya dan kawan dia :) menyerahkan handphone nye kepada dia untuk bercakap dengan saya . :)
on 24 januari 2009 . 
wahh ! ingat lagi ! :)
dari situ bermula lahh perkenalan kami dann terjadi lahh hubungan kami sebagai abang dan adik angkat .
25 januari 1992 , his born on this date :)
where ? i dunno :)
study at banting , selangor . 
dia ambil berat , baik , kelaka , selalu tlg saye , selalu ade dengan saya bila sy memerlukan dan yg penting .
dia mampu buat saya TERSENYUM gembira sepanjang masa .
kalau msj dgn dye , jd orang gilaa sekejap .
senyum sorang sorang , ketawa sorang sorang :D
but , i love the way his are .
his promise to me , whatever happen , wherever we are , whatever we do , we'll never lost contact and forget each other :)
iloveyou lahh bro :)
thank u so much abang :)
i hope u'll achieve whatever u want in your life :)
blaja rajin rajin okayy :)
nnty dahh dapat kete , bwk adik jln jln yee :)
thanks sbb abg banyak sabar ngan adik :)
adik nie dahh lahh degil .
selalu tak dengar cakap abang . kann dahh menyesal :)
adeii . 
terima kasih utk semua nasihat andaa :)
sy sgt menghargainye :D

 lastly ,
ILOVEYOU lahh GEMOK :)

Monday, December 20, 2010

tron : legacy :)

tau tak title cite ape nie ? 
haa , cite nie sangat best !  HAHA . 
hero dye , HANDSOME ! sam flynn name dye dalam cite tu . :)
haa , and i'll remember this film because this is d first film i watch with mr . R . :)
20 disember 2010 .
our first date ! :) but , not as a couple okayy . kawan jea . get it ? KAWAN ! :)
at times square jea . nak pg jejauh tak sempat dahh .
haa , disebabkan times square tu macam takde tmpat nak lepak ,
kitorang tak tau nak bwat ape .
kitorang pusing floor 1 sampai floor 5 sebanyak 2 kali ! :)
pusing kat floor 1,2 and 3 tak tau lahh bape kali kalau campur yg due kali tu . :D
adeii . sangat takot lahh jumpe dye tadi . aku yg banyak mulut nie jadi tak banyak cakap . 
malu + takot + segan :D
tengok muke dye pun cam bosan sangat date ngan aku .
adeii , sorry R . buat u bosan . :'(
hah . dye okayy lahh . not bad . n he's protective :)
first date kitorang hambar sket lahh . hee :) 
so , takat nie jea lahh cite kitorang ehh :)

R.
thnx 4 d great day yea ! :) 

Sunday, December 19, 2010

awak PENGECUT !

hey you ! yes you A.F ! i dunno how n why i wanna write this . u know what ? kat mate i skrg nie , u tak lebih dari seorang PENGECUT dan EGO ! yes ! u know why ? sbb u sgtsgt ego dan takot nak mengaku salah sendiri ! takot nak hadapi salah sendiri ! hey ! u can say i yg bersalah dalam hal nie , u can say whatever u want . but , pleaseee know something yea . takkan selamanya ego u tu akan menang ! hey . let me ask u something . why ehh ? everytime i'm txt u , talking about her . u'll reply my text . but , if i not , u just ignore d text . text yg i bg panjang berjela tu , knp tak reply ? seket pun i tak talking about her . i luahkan ape yg i rase slame kte couple dulu ! u didn't gve any response ! yeah ! IHATEYOU! 1 night , i realise something . i shouldn't say ihateyou . okayy . i'm surrender . i gve u a txt . i say i'm sorry for saying IHATEYOU n i hope ur relationship with her will stand until last forever . n guess what ? something i didn't expect at all ! u reply ! u said ,

u : "i tak suke sbb u slalu ungkit pasal dye . i takde kne mngne dgn dye . paham tak ?! "
me : " okayy . i paham . n i'm sorry . itu jea ke salah i ? takde lagi dahh ? hey , pleasee know somrthing yea . i ungkit pasal dye sbb itu jea care u reply txt i . i takde care laen . i'm sorry if i'm used d wrong way yea . "

nahh ! u tak reply pun ! what does it meant hah ? u dont even say sorry ! u tak admit salah u . sbb u cume nampak slame nie , yg u btol . u tak salah pape . yg salah i sorang . hey , i hurt more than u okayy ! get to know something lahh . u bgge sgt dengan ego u kann ? tgk sampai bila u akan menang dgn ego u nie . 1 day , u'll feel what i'm feel . n u'll know , how pain it is ! hey , i tak harap pun lahh ucap maaf u tu . i cume harap , siape pun yg jd gf u after nie , pleasee yea . jgn bwat dye macam ape yg u bwat dkat i . AND ! if u rase u tak sayang perempuan tu , dun say iloveyou . she might do something crazy just because of the three words . kalau u kat tempat i , ape yg u rase ehh ? i dun understand n i dunno why u're doing this . maybe i'm wrong . i accept u at d wrong time . supposed i let you finished ur SPM as well . i'm sorry . to be ur gf is not deserved for me . i can't be a person like u want me to be !

great ! my love for u is 100% fade ! i'm thank God for that . but , our memories never fade . it keeps comes and go . BUT ! i always let the memories comes and go like a wind . just for a moment , but not for a lifetime . if u really love someone . let her feel the love , let her feel she was somebody to u , let her feel ur love , ur heart , ur soul is just for her ! take a good care of her yea . remember A.F , dun feel too proud with ur ego . 

let our love be a memories .
.

blog , facebook ? what else ? :D

adeii . nak buat pe lagi ehh time cuti skolah nie slaen melayan due bnde alah nie ? HAHA :D layan tv , makan , tido , ikot ayah AND ternak lemak dalam badan . HAHA :) nak study ? penyakit yg PALING MERBAHAYA n takde ubat menguasai diri . tau pnyakit ape ? pnyakit MALAS ! HAHA :) disebabkan kebosanan yg melanda diri nie lahh , terhasil blog nie . hee :) school holiday nie , tak pegi bercuti pun . duk umah jea . parent asyik bz , bz , bz ! urrrggghhhh ! tension lahh duduk umah nie ! haish . nak sangat cepatcepat balik hostel jmpe kawankawan . haa , msty best ! :) tp , next year dahh tak best . :'( . haa , dahh start dahh . my tears is coming out right now . sebelom keyboard aku nie basah macam ape yg dahh jadi mase aku tulis post before nie . better i'm go . takat nie jea ehh . daa :)

Saturday, December 18, 2010

i still need u friends .



korang tau tak . sepanjang cuti nie , arzi asyik tengok gmbr korang jea . n now . korang nak tgglkan arzi ke ? jgn lahh kua uhh . nnty next year arzi dahh takde geng . arzi ade lya , aida , lilo. tu lahh yg btolbtol rapat . korang tau enn ape jd ngan arzi . arzi sgtsgt need korang . i still n i'll always need all of u .

 tggl setaun jea . korang tak stay hostel punn , pleasee stay skolah uhh . nnty arzi , lya boleh fly jmpe korang . nxt year kte dahh senior dahh . orientasi form 1 nnty . arzi need korang sgtsgt . bg arzi semangat nak stay jd BPP . sape lg nak dnga cte arzi ? sape lg nak tlg bg opinion kat arzi ? pleasee sgt . arzi begging sgt kat korang at least stay SEKOLAH .

 sape lg yg nak bwat keje gle nie ngan arzi ? sape lg nak bwat arzi gelak , happy , lupe sume masalah arzi ? tau tak , arzi sgtagt excited nak balik hostel , jumpe korang . bnyk gle cite uhh . arzi tak sabar nak dnga cite korang time cuti . msty banyak enn ? 

sape nak serong ngan arzi lagi ? fly samesame . nxt year SPM . tak boleh serong dahh . kita fly jea bolehh . sape nak fly ngan arzi lagi ? nnty kita blaja lahh samesame . korang pandai . nnty arzi dahh tak semangat dahh nak duduk hostel . bila nak jmpe korang lagi ? if korang stay skolah jea care kita boleh jmpe .

org yang rapat ngan arzi , msty pg tggalkan arzi . korang pun nak tgglkan arzi ke ? 

Nur Raihan , Nor Hazwani , Irni Irdahayu , Nur Syakira , Aimi Dalila , Afiqah Nadhirah , Wardahanim .

n . atpners yg laen . arzi doa sangat korang stay . at least stay skola . i really NEED , MISS n LOVE all of u . :( 

Nurfazlya , Aida Aqilah , Nurizatul Syazwani .

sayee sangat bersyukur korang stay . :)
BFF ! :D 

OMG ! nak percaya atau tidak ?

17 disember 2010

today , hang out i dpn comp . Times Square i dalam rumahku syurgaku ini . n . movie aku dpan tv ksygan aku nie :D i dahh siap tau tak ! DAHH SIAP ! tggl nak angkat kaki kua umah jea . i sgt berterima kasih dkat my kasut kerana andaa menghilangkan diri dan telah membuatkan saya lmbt kluar rumah .

TING ! i message received from R .
R : u . i wanna say sorry sgtagt . i cannot go . my grandma kat hosp . i balik umah , sume org dahh siapsiap nak         pg tgk . i'm really sorry . tak tau pun bnde nak jadi .
me : ouh . its okayy .
R : u . i really didn't meant it .
me : yeah . i noe . its okayy .  
R : u . i taknak u anggap i nak maenmaen ngan u . macam ape yg A bwat . i taknak u pk camtu . 

( hoho . aku tak ckp pape pun . asal ttbe ckp cmnie ? )

me : no lahh . i tak pk cmtu punn .
R : u . i syg u .
(great . again ? )
me : haha . jgn ckp kalau bnde tu tak btol lahh .
R : yee . but , i da starting nak syg u .
me : baru nak start . blom ade .
R : but , feel tu dahh ade .

HAHA :) sy sgtsgt tak sangke dye akan ckp mcm nie . i dunno i have to believe it or not . just wait n see what gonna happen after this . 

R .
i'm sorry . i'm hurt a lot before . n . i hope u will understand why am i so hard to believe what u're saying . but , thanks to u . coz u always there whenever i need u .
THANK YOU :) 

Thursday, December 16, 2010

urggghhhh ! boleh tak ?

urrgghhhh !
boleh tak kalau tak ingat sal dye ? takde org len ke aku nak ingat ?
weyh ! penting ke aku ingat kau hah ?
kau bukan penah ingat aku pun kann ! name aku pun ntah ntah kau dahh lupe !
ARZI AMIRA !
ape lahh kau nie ! yg kau ingat dye tu asal ?  stop it arzi ! kau tak dapat ape lahh nnty !
URGHHH !
nape lahh gatal sgt tangan td tgk gmbr manusie tu ? oppppsss ! tertinggal . manusie takde perasaan ! HAHA :D
penat lahh dgn sume stupid things nie !
tp , saya teramatlahh bersyukur kerana sayang saya untuk manusia tidak berperasaan macam awak nie dah TAK WUJUD !
GREAT ! :D

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

thanks for give me the colours :)

he came . 
for lighten my life .
n since he here , my world is full of colours .
UNFORTUNATELY .
he left me too .
without saying anything .
i'm totally depressed ! 
n from that time , 
my world crashing down .
he broke my heart into a million  pieces !
my world become darker n no colours !
 ITS CHANGE !
when u're here !
since u said , " SAYA SAYANG AWAK SANGATSANGAT "
oh GOD !
is it true ?
no one expect !
it suddenly happen !
n n . there a miracle happen .
thanks dear .
for light up my life back .
n thanks for turning back the colours in my life :)

this is because u always here , by my side everytime i need you :)


 

LOVE :)

We think about it,
sing about it,
dream about it,
and lose sleep worrying about it.

When we don't have it,
we search for it;
when we discover it,
we don't know what to do without it,
when we have it,
we fear losing it.

It's a constant source of pleasure and pain
but we can't predict from one minute to the next,
which could be today.

We love our parents,
our brothers and sisters,
our boyfriends and girlfriends,
our comfortable shoes

Love
- It's a short work,
easy to spell,
difficult to defind,
impossible to live without.

my heart is broken enough :'(




Darkest depths of my soul
Slowly being destroyed by your chemical.
I'm tired of being alone
Last love has turned my heart cold as stone.
Trust, love, and faith all thrown back in my face
I'm such a fucking disgrace.
You dont deserve the comfort of my love
And I didnt deserved to be punched,
pushed, or shoved.
Did I even mean anything to you?
Or was I just a toy for you to subdue?
I dont know anymore the real me
When I look in the mirror I cant understand
what and who I see.
You've sent me back to the way I use to be
Cold hearted, bitter, and inside angry.
The blood from my wrists tell my story
I wanna die and be dead and buried.
My image of myself is incomplete, broken, and dead
Why is my blood all thats being shead?
I know I'm not perfect
Nothing but a burden for some lost soul to collect.
But you made me think different
But it was all a lie and every word you never meant.
But I will find someone better than you
And with that happiness there's nothing you can do.
Give me what I could never ask for
Give me back my heart untoar.
So I can give it to another who deserves what I have to give
A dead soul that desperatly wants to live

thnx babe :D


i really need someone right now .
ntah lahh . sejak Rdatang , aku rase dunie aku dahh okayy .
tak macam dulu . aku dahh lupekan A . n i did !
nxt step is , bia jea bnde nie berterusan .
bia perasaan nie tros takde . n . aku selesa macam nie .
but , i'm lonely . like no one care bout me . no one love me .
aku dahh penat dgn sume nie . A dahh mati dalam hidup aku .
itu yg dye nak , aku tau . dyee tak pnah sygg aku . tak pnah wujud pun sayang dye utk aku .
aku tau sume tu .
we're not meant for each other . i want someone yg btolbtol ikhlas syg aku .
be my angle . be my teddy bear to hug on . be my favourite chocolate .
my life is more complete without him .i;m much much happy without him .
aku sedar skrg . syg aku langsung tak bermakne bg dye .
A ego ! sgtsgt ego !
satu ari nnty , ego dye tu akan jerat diri dye !
pleasee A . jgan bwat org laen mcm ape u bwat dkat i .
remember this okayy . what goes around come around .
u akan dapat balasan jgak . u akan rase ape i rase .
n at that time . u'll noe . how pain it is .
thnx 4 all d pain .
i harap , u'll find ur happiness with someone more better than me soon .
i'm always pray for that . i doakan u sihat ,
i harap u tak datang dalam hidup i lagi . i really wanna forget u . 
pleasee . jgn datang lagi . utk dnga name u pun , kalau boleh i taknak .
i tak sayang u dahh . sayang i dahh mati n takkan hidup lagi .
i taknak kejadian yang same jadi lagi .
i'm sorry 4 all my mistakes .especially bout A.A.
i'm sorry . 



R
thnx for making me smile again .i really thnx for that .
i dunno how . n no one knows .
it suddenly happen with no one expect . even urself didn't expect it isn't it ?
i know u're hurt too . 
but i'm sorry . its hard for me to believe what u're saying .
i just want to be more careful after what had happen in my life . in my love story .
its hurt . really really hurt .
but , i found the cure in urself :D
so much thanks babe .
i tak taw lg u sape . but , i'm sure u're not like him right ? i hope so .
thnx once again :) 

bestee :D



Kita ramai kawan . kita ramai bestie .
Semua rahsia kita , or pape story jea lahh .
Even kecik pnye story pun kita msty nak citer kan ?
Orang pompuan lahh katakann . HAHA .
But , not gossips okay ? HAHA :D
Tapi , tak semua rahsia kita boleh share dgn orang .
Setiap sorang bestie kte tu msty ade simpan rahsie dorang jgak .
Privacy dye , hak dye . 
Dye kwn baik aku , tp aku nie kwn baik dye ke ?
Kalau dye anggap aku kwn baik dye slame ny , knp dye buat aku mcm ny ehh ?
Ade orang sggop hilang kawan baik dye sbb kawan baik dye lg sorang .
Dalam persahabatan pun ade pengorbanan nye taw .
Tp . jgn sesekali lbhkan bf or gf koranng drpd kawan2 korang sndri !
Korang syg mcm mane pun dkat si dia ,
Jgn lahh lbhkan dia dr kawan korang okay !
Sbb ape ape yg jd dlm relationship korang nnty , kwn korang jgak yg dicari .
Kwn korang jgak yg dicari utk meluahkan rase geram , sedih , kecewa korang dkat si dia nnty .
Si dia tu pun nnty akan jd kwn kita kalau break .
Kawan kita akan sentiasa ade utk kita .
1 more thing ,
Kalau ade story yg mmbe korang tak citer tu ,
Jgn lahh marah .
 dye msty ade sbb sndri knp dye taknak share ngan kita .
Everyone needs their own privacy .
As a good friends , we have to respect their privacy ,
Korang pon msty nak privacy sndri kan ?
Gadoh dgn kwn kwn tu biase lahh .
Pergaduhan antara kawan itu tidak akan ke mane .
Tp , bila satu hati dahh terlalu sakit ,
Mungkin hbgn persahabatan itu diteruskan  dgn hambar .
(fuhh . ayat taknak kalah :D )
Jage perasaan kawan korang nie . jage hbgn persahabatan nie elok elok .
Sbb hbgn persahabatan itu adalah suatu anugerah yg sgt berharga utk kita .
Perasan tak ? kita lbh byk bercerita dgn kwn kita dr family kita .
Walaupun kita rapat sgt dgn fmly ,
Keselesaan utk bercerita itu lbh kepada org luar .
Kadang-kadang kita kate kita syg sgt kat bf or gf kita .
Tp , hakikatnya ksh syg kita kat kwn kwn kita tu lbh dr ksh syg kita kat bf or gf kita tu .
Renungkan ehh ?  :D

UNTUK MENCARI SAHABAT SEJATI ITU SEPERTI MENCARI PERMATA DI DALAM TIMBUNAN KACA ,       
BIARPUN SUSAH , BIARPUN SAKIT , KITA AKAN TETAP BERUSAHA UNTUK MENDAPATKAN SESUATU YG SGT BERHARGA :D

THE END……………………………………………………… : )

cinta itu PENGORBANAN :D

ade ape dengan cinta ?ape yg bestnye bercinta ?
or couple lahh sng cte kann .
dahh byk kali kte  dnga ade org sakit hati , merana , menderita sebab CINTA
kenapa dorang rase mcm tu ? ade byk sebab sbnanyee .
slalu kte dnga lelaki ny punca org pompuan sakit sbb cinta .
tp , sbnanye org pompuan pun byk jgak sbbkan org laki sakit sbb cinta .
conclusion , kte sume same . tak kira boy ke , gurl ke , same jea .
ade kisah curang lahh , mainkan perasaan lahh . macam2 lahh .
tp, yg pntg kite kene taw .
Cinta , kasih sayang , rindu tu sume hak manusia .
Tak salah kte nak sayang orang tu , nak rindu ex kte .
Tu sume hak individu . takde sape blh halang kte drpd ade prasaan tu .
HMM .
Cinta tu ape ehh ?
Ade orang cakap cinta tu itu lahh ini lahh . macam macam .
Cinta ny subjektif .
Tp , bg aku . CINTA itu PENGORBANAN .
Ramai orang sanggop berkorban sbb cinta .
Tak kira lahh benda baik ke buruk ke , jelik ke , hina ke , jijik ke ,
Ade orang sanggop korbankan harte , mase , duit .
Semuanya sbb cinta .
Tp . jgn lahh smpi membodohkan diri sndri .
Tp , teramatlahh menyakitkan hati apabila madu yg kita bg tu ,
Si dia balas dgn tuba .
(ecehh . berfalsafah pulak . hihi )
Stlh ape yg kte korbankan , ttbe kita d’tgglkan mcm tu jea .
Saye sndri pnah rase sakitnya d’tgglkan seseorang yg kte syg spnoh hati .
Tp , yg pasti . ape  pun yg jd dlm hbgn kita ,
Kita kena redha . mule mule saye pun rase depressed sangat .
Macam nak mati , hari hari menangis ingatkan si dia yg dahh sakitkan aty kita
Tp , lame lame saye sedar . saye pun msty ade silap jugak .
Nobody perfect kann ?
Msty dye ade reason dye sndri .
D difference is , reasonable or not .
 Takde jodoh nak buat mcm mane .
Dan disebabkann kesedaran itu , saya nekad .
Jgn mudah percaya dgn sume janji manis tu .
Ape pun yg jd , life must go on .
Jgn musnahkan hidup kita cume sbb CINTA . Kita tak dapat pape pun nnty .
Utk merindui dan masih menyayangi itu tidak salah ,
Tapi sebaik baik nya , kurangkan rase syg tu , lupakan yg kita pernah menyayangi dia .
Tp , memori itu tetap datang dan pergi . apatah lagi yg indah indah .
Kenanglahh memori itu sebagai suatu detik terindah yg pnah jd dlm hidup kte
Di sebalik tiap tiap kejadian itu ade hikmahnye . Ambil pengajaran .
Siapa tahu Tuhan dah ciptakan seseorang yg lbh baik utk kte kan ?
Kita sume tak tau . nie sume mainan takdir .
Dalam bercinta or bercouple ny byk dugaan nye .
Tempuh sume tu dengan saba , dan jgn smpi kte menyesal .
Kalau kita tahu kita sayang orang tu , jgn lahh kita sakitkan hati dia .
Cuba gembirakan dia .
Yg pnting , dah tau kita syg dia , bwat pe nak carik yg laen kan ?
Tu tamak namenye . tak cukup satu . HAHA .
Jage lahh si dia sebaik mungkin .
Buat dia rase disayangi , dihargai , ade orang nak amik tau sal dia ,
Ade org ambil berat pasal dye .
Jgn sesekali biarkan dia rase kesunyian kerana perkara ni akan buat dia rase yg kita tak sayang dia .
Se bz mane pun kita dgn urusan kita ,  walau ape pun masalah kita ,
Find a way .
Utk bgtau dia yg kita bz ade problem ke ape ke .
Jgn biar dia tertunggu tunggu .
Ape gune ade handphone kann ? msj lahh . aduii . :D
Kalau handphone takde , kalau kita btol btol syg org tu .
Kita msty carik care mcm mane nak bgtau dye .
Kita takkan biarkan dia tertggu tggu pgglan dr kte .
So ,jage lahh si dia korang dengan sepenuh hati dan kasih sayang , J
AND ! jgn mainkan perasaan orang okay ?

LOVE BRINGS MEMORIES AND THOSE REMAINS FOREVER <3
LOVE IS A WONDERFUL THING IF WE KNOW HOW TO APPRECIATE IT . <3
THE END ……………………………… :D

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

kenapa awak tak pnah faham ?

ini lahh yg sy rase slame ny :(
awak , awak tau tak . slame ny . sy diam jea .
sy bia , sy redha jea ape awk buat kat saye .
susah nye awak nak ade samesame ngan saye . share evrythng ngan sy .
mase awak nak sy dlu , mcm mcm awak jnji ngan sy .
awak jnji nak jage saye , 
dulu , awak jgak ckp , jage relationship ny baek baek .
tp , skrg ? 
saye jage sorang sorang jea . awak tak pnah pduli punn .
nak msj awak , pnye lahh susahh .
mcm nak msj ngan ank perdana menteri !  
bila saye bgtaw , awak ckp saye tak phm awak , saye tak syg awak ,
awak marah saye balik .
alasan awak , awak nak SPM .
awak tau tak ape prasaan saye mase tu ?
ye , sy tau . n sy dahh ckop phm awak nak SPM .
tp , yg sy plik . awak tak msj sy lgsung !
24 jam ke awak bz dgn buku awak tu ?
nak anta 1 msj tu amek mase 10 mnt ke ?
saye tgk org laen blh jea msj skjap .knp awak tak blh ? 
due mggu , ttbe awak hlg mcm tu jea .
sy plik mane awak pg ?sy call awak tak angkat , txt tak reply .
mase tu , sy dahh ptus asa . sy btol btol pk awak dahh  lupe sy , tak syg saye .
so , sy anta 1 ttxt , sy mintak break .
takde respon jgak . sdihnyer aty saye mase tuh . mase , tau lahh saye yg awak mmg tak syg saye .
ttbe , awak msj . awak mintak maaf , awak nak sy blik , awak need sy .
awak kate phone awak , mama awak tarik .
kalau awak syg saye , awak takkan biakann saye mcm tu jea .
awak msty crik care mcm mane nak bgtaw saye yg awak takde phone .
sy diam lg , sy taknak bebankann pkrn awak .
okayy , sy accept awak lg .
tak lame lpas tu , awak okayy .awak msj sy ,
saye happy sgt ! sy dahh dpt boyfie sy yg lame . 
1 ary tu , awak ajak sy kua . dahh 2 bln kte tak jmpe .
tp , sy lambat 1 jam . sy mintak maaf awak !
itu punn awak marah sye , awak ckp mcm tggul awak tggu saye kat train tu .
kalau 1 jam tu awak ckp awak sy tggul ,
hbs tu , yg slame ny sy tggu awak b'mggu mggu tu ape ?
tggul jgak ke ? 
ade 1 ary tu , spatotnye kte jmpe .sy tggu awak kat LRT PUDU .
sy smpi jea . ttbe awak ckp tak jd .  GERAM NYA !
ble sy smpi kat umah plak , awak suruh saye patah balik .
awak nak jgak jmpe sayee .
sy marah punn, sy pg jgak .
ttbe , awak hlg lg . tak angkat call , tak reply txt .
ttbe 1 hari tu , awak msj saye ,
awak kate awak terpakse lpaskann sayee sbb awak sakit .
sy sedihh . 
awak pk tak ape prasaan saye mase tu ?
ttbe jea awak tgglkan sayee . 
kalau awak sakit , tak layak ke sayee nak ade samesame dgn awak time awak susah ?
awak ingat saye ny jahat sgt ke ?
kann jnji kte dlu , nak susah sng samesame .
awak ingat tak sy pnah ckp ,
kalau awak tak need saye , saye akan pg dr hdop awak .
okayy . sy trime kptusan awak . sy pg dr hdop awak wlupun aty sy berat .

AWAK .
saye mengaku saye syg awak lagi . 
tp , sejak awak tgglkan saye ,
saye dahh nekad . i have too move on .
saye tak blh tros ingat kat awak . sy  TAK BOLEH tros mcm nie ! 

AWAK ,
time kasih byk byk atas ape yg awak dah pnah buat utk sy slame ny .